The Journey Begins

My post from Facebook June 12  “Hello Facebook family. I am sorry I haven’t been on here for a while but I have been very tired lately. Today officially I got the diagnosis. Cancer of the breast and lymph system. Any prayers will be appreciated. This is going to be an interesting summer. God Bless everyone.

June 19 th “ It’s 1 am and I  am in the hospital in excruciating pain in my head back and spine. I showed up Saturday to find that the cancer is now in my lungs and I have multiple blood clots in my lungs. I still haven’t seen an oncologist to get treatment started and the pain gets worse every day. I could still use those prayers. On the plus side I have had conversations with people online and had visits from friends so I am grateful for that. We just need the treatments to get started. This Cancer stuff really sucks. Many Blessings to you all. Love Me.” 

This is how I came out to the world. The week before had been a total and complete crap show of worry shock and adrenaline. Not to mention coughing. So much coughing  and doctors that couldn’t tell me anything. I did two CT scans, an MRI and a bone scan. The complete diagnosis was Metastatic triple negative Breast Cancer. What does this mean? It means I have a rare type of cancer that can only be treated with Chemo. It also meant that it is aggressive and for life. I was dying. Yes we are all dying but I now knew what would probably kill me and the time frame didn’t look good. I must admit I am still struggling with this one. Median age of death from this cancer is 9 months. I was terrified and confused. How could I be 41 years old and might possibly die? I have children. God wouldn’t take me away from my children. I didn’t want to believe what was going on but I have definitely been sick for a while and many doctors were confirming it so it was hard not to believe. I decided to bring it public so that people were not shocked by it.  The response was overwhelming. Many prayers and many people concerned. I decided to keep them updated on my Facebook so that I could keep them informed and also because they became my hope. With a diagnosis like this I need hope. I need faith and I need prayers.  So I decided to broaden out my circle.  Now I will be blogging for however long God has given me. I hope to reach many landmark years with this blog but if I only get 9 months then I hope I have written enough that my children know something about me. This is my forever cancer story. I hope it lasts a lifetime. God Bless

 

 

 

Good company in a journey makes the way seem shorter. — Izaak Walton

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